irony

i'm getting sentimental/nostalgic these days...even popsy thinks so. weird.

all i ever wanted when i was growing up was to go far far far away from home. by 12 i wanted out of the house..but of course thgs din go my way..at 16 i got my ticket out -> boarding school. like many other human being, i was (and still am in matters concerning to that school) very ungrateful. i mean i got out of the house den i started to complain bout d school so i went home tonnes.

i turned 18 in a different state from my parents. trust me when u r a kid who had celebrated 17 birthdays at home, this was a change to say the least -> my birthdays keep falling when i'm away from home since then.

20th birthday in a whole new country. no blood, jus the family i made in college..i've been emotionally dependent on them since i've been here..they've kept me partially sane. but the independence, that i savour - no restriction, no rules.

now after 3 yrs here, the one thg i pine for is the same thg i was willing to give up in a flash when i was 12, HOME. my sanity now depends on it - ironic.

Mr. Tan, i tink ur right, NZ has turned me into a softie.. damn wool!

be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. -Dr. Seuss-